30 July 2020 @ 06:10 pm

This is the journal of nessa, where I dump my sheet music and some fangirling, as well as some real-life moments. I'm mostly described in my profile, but put simply, I'm a band geek and a fan of pretty boys. (Mind you, that's put REALLY simply, because I could go on about both for a very long time.) Toss in some gaming, some animé and some nerding, and you've pretty much got me.

Personal posts are locked so you don't have to read my fangirling and RL drama (not really drama), but full-blown fandom posts will be public. Any of my sheet music will be public, so you don't have to add me to access my stuff (and I will try to cross-post in the proper communities anyway). However, I'm open to being friends, as long as you think we have something in common. Just please, don't randomly add me - I reserve the right to not friend anyone that I don't think I know, which I think you guys will all agree with.

Sheet music and writing have been moved into one shiny master post for your convenience. Here, have my drama list, too. :D

Enjoy scrolling around!
17 December 2012 @ 02:32 pm
Since I've been extremely slow on the uptake, I've finally got Christmas cards! They'll obviously be a bit late since they're being sent out at this point in time, but it's never too late to spread a little more holiday cheer, in my opinion. :)

(Whoops, wasn't done.)

All comments are screened! I'll let you know when I've sent your card out. It'll just have a few happy things on it, and maybe a crude drawing courtesy of yours truly, lol. So have at it! I do need to use some of these cards, anyway.
03 November 2011 @ 11:01 am
Hey everyone! :D

I know it's a little bit early to be thinking of this, and I'll probably be doing a bit of pimping this out throughout the month, but I'd love to send out Christmas cards again this year! It was actually such a pleasure to get them in the mail last year and read what you guys wrote, and for me to be able to send cards to you (I mean, I hope you liked them?). I know that I'm not on here very much any more and so we haven't been able to connect as much as before, but everyone could use a nice Christmas card, right? :) I'll try my best!

So! If you'd like a card, drop a comment here with:

Name you'd like me to address you by
Where you're coming from (if you're not on LJ/not my friend yet on LJ)
Any special requests you may have for pictures/babbling/etc. Heck, I'll write you something if you really want. I can't write RPF/slash, though. lol

All comments on this post are screened. For those of you I'm pimping this out to that don't have an LJ account, I should have enabled comments for everyone but if that doesn't work just prod me at whichever social networking thing you're contacting me with, haha. You can also PM me your address if you feel so inclined.

Okay, I think that's it. If you guys are sending out Christmas cards too, link me! I'd love some Christmas cards. :D
Current Music: hopeaa hiuksillaan - rajaton
Current Mood: lethargic
19 May 2011 @ 12:17 am
Solo Piano Arrangement: 命運線 (Destiny) - Super Junior-M  
Back to sheet music making! I miss this pastime, to be honest. XD

Since I don't have a job I have time, so I used my last two to three days pulling this together. It's kind of overlapping hands at times but that's why you have the sustain pedal! :D As usual, the audio file from Finale does it no justice so just try it out on your own. :)


Download contains audio file and the PDF of the sheet music. This file will be edited, because right now I don't have the composer on me right now D: If someone wants to share that info with me I'll put it on. (But I trust you all know that the song isn't mine.)

... I wish there was a way I could write the KRZ part at the end nicer, since it doesn't really do them justice. :|
Current Music: airplanes pt. II - b.o.b. ft. hayley williams, eminem
01 January 2011 @ 02:02 pm
auld lang syne  
Happy new year, everyone! I pray that your 2011 is one full of:

+ happiness - that your days will be brightened by a smile
+ success - that you will earn it in everything you do
+ discovery - find something new and worthwhile
+ peace - with others, and with yourself
+ commitment - something that will stick with you for the rest of your life
+ hope - to keep your motivation going in even the darkest of times
+ love - from your family, friends and even random strangers, and that you will have it to love in return

Take care, and God bless.


While I'm at it, I'll throw in my happy birthdays to the two celebrities I know born on January 1: Domoto Koichi and Lee Sungmin!

Admittedly, I don't know much about Koichi beyond the fact that he's in KinKi, can sing well, does ENDLESS SHOCK (and that really cool taiko sequence!) and that [ profile] neivaxx is a huge fan XD But having your birthday celebrated at Countdown every year must be exciting :D To Koichi, who is still not as known to me, perhaps I'll take the chance to learn more about you this year - I hope that this year is full of successes for you!

Whether Sungmin is being cute or being fierce, he does it well; I love him both ways. He has so many talents - acting, singing, playing instruments, dancing, martial arts - and yet he is so incredibly humble about it all. To Sungmin, who seemed to go through a lot with his image this past year: I'll be happy and love you no matter how you are, so don't be too hard on yourself! You look the best when you smile, and I hope you know that. I'm so glad that last year I took a chance and got to know Super Junior, because it is people like you who continue to inspire me. :)

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A post about Kouhaku, Countdown and the Gayo Daejuns will come soon when I actually watch the first two and more of the others, but since it's Sungmin's birthday (even though I'm late on his side) I just have to say that he was super fierce on MBC and I loved every second of it. I don't know how he does it, but I personally think his image gap is brilliant. 
Current Music: u - super junior-m
24 December 2010 @ 10:32 pm homepage of miracles!  

no worries bb, I'd hug you!

Aiba is this amazing ball of energy that bounces off the walls, the other members, the television screen, and everything in between. I love watching him, because his mood totally sets that of everyone around him, whether it's a 'let's work hard!' attitude or a 'wheeeeeeeeeeee' attitude. And in those extremely rare moments where we get to see him sit down and say a little about what he thinks about himself and others, something comes out that shows how much he cherishes his group.

He's been said to constantly profess his love for Arashi when he gets drunk, he's extremely cute with animals (which also seems to bring out his fail!English skills), and he says the dorkiest things that become the key words in fandom. And of course, true to his miracle boy title, he pulls out those impossible works time and time again. Or maybe he just has good luck and timing simultaneously. :D

Aiba, you silly dorky guy, happy birthday, and continue being the energetic person you are. Your smile lights up so many other people.
20 October 2010 @ 01:17 pm
bullied into doing this, waeeeee  
So I don't know if many of you have seen this Halloween meme popping about, but [ profile] sidevocalist INSISTED I do it. Here goes:

• Create a graphic (200 x 200 max size) to represent your personal "candy". It should have your username on it, but otherwise can feature whatever you want. Make it something special since it's self-representative.

• Make a post with the subject "trick or treat?". Put your "candy" somewhere in it, and be sure to repost these instructions.

• Then, go around other people's LJs and reply to them with either "trick" or "treat". If you reply with "trick", they will give you an LJ dare that you have to perform before taking their candy. If you're too wimpy for that, simply say "treat" and take their candy.

• List all your collected candies in your original "trick or treat?" post to show off your collection!

My main objection to doing this was that I had no cool candy to share, but in the end I came up with this:


awin better be happy now D: 

And what little candy I do have!


So yeah, trick or treat? LJ dares seem fun XD
30 August 2010 @ 12:07 pm
to the most fabulous of them all  

A significant portion of the people in Arashi fandom were baited by a certain drama known as Hana Yori Dango - yours truly included. And while it was not Domyouji Tsukasa that won me over at the time, it was this drama that led me to the land of rainbows, sparkles and failboats. The credit, of course, can only go to one man:


To be brutally honest, at first I didn't know what people saw in Jun; all I knew was that he was very popular and pretty much skyrocketed Arashi to the heights they are at now. But I thought there had to be something about him that made it worthwhile, so I stuck around and gave him a chance. And really, I think I'm glad I did.

Jun has a very interesting aura around him. His popularity makes him seem very distant and he sometimes gives off a very commanding feel (which may be a result of his DoS-ness), but take him off the stage and in a variety show and he's dorking it off with the rest of the group in a way that people wouldn't normally think is possible, just because he's so popular and seems above all the silly things they do. And yet, this is where I love him best; the fact that Jun can do these sorts of things makes him very endearing, and I love my idols dorky. This is why I think Arashi has survived and become very strong as a group - each of its members remembers the others and how critical they are to each other. (It's also why I kind of mourn the loss of AnS, but that's another story altogether.)

Aside from really sticking with the group, Jun comes up with cool ideas. When I first learned that he was the innovator of the moving stages, I really started to admire the thought he puts into Arashi's concerts. The fact that he would watch the concert footage to constantly better himself is crazy in itself, but it just shows how dedicated he is to his work and to his audience. He works hard at what he does, and even though he's not the best at it, he knows and has improved over the years. Others in his position would rest on their laurels of popularity, but not him.

And lastly, he can fail on his own terms too. The cracks in his DoS persona are absolutely hilarious (such as the scene from where I get the cap - marvelous indeed!). And he makes it a point to get along with everyone.

Happy birthday, Jun! May you love Arashi as you always do. :)
Current Mood: happy
06 August 2010 @ 12:59 pm
Solo Piano Arrangement: 너라고 (It's You) - Super Junior  
I'm actually posting sheet music after over half a year! :D

So, a couple of months ago I got into Super Junior. It pretty much wreaked havoc on my way of operating, but I'm calming down now. :) In any case, I know that there are lots of other arrangements out there for this song, but I decided to try my hand at it anyway.

Without further ado, Super Junior's Neorago (It's You)!


In the .rar file are a PDF of the sheet music and an MP3 of what Finale's playback function made of it. Sustain pedal is your friend, especially since the Finale playback is pretty much lifeless on this one. I tried sticking really close to the original song, but the last part isn't as exciting because I didn't know how to put the adlibs in. D:

I guess this will stay hidden on my journal for now because I don't know where I'd post it, I suck at playing it and I wouldn't be able to record it anyway, but if anyone would like to give it a go, by all means! Feedback is very much appreciated, as always. I might end up tweaking it a bit myself. :)
Current Mood: amused
02 July 2010 @ 05:23 pm
to he who never seems to age  
Happy birthday, Kenken! :)

Honestly, Ken doesn't look like he's thirty-one. Right?

For a mostly Tonisen-biased girl, Ken has become pretty much my second-favourite in V6. And for someone who prizes singing in her idols, Ken might be an interesting choice. Honestly, at first I wasn't a -huge- fan of Ken, but it was stuff like his cheekiness and his contemplativeness that got me. He's got such an interesting gap in what he writes and what he says that's quite unique to him.

My interest in Ken definitely shot up after watching his SCP interview. The nature of SCP is kind of serious, but he really gave a lot of thought into what he said. When he said he was 'the one who loves V6 the most', and then talked about the Honey Beat concept (which I loved!), I was a little surprised but more in admiration. And reading his jweb entries, they're not only funny but also poetic - and I get the vibe that it's so definitively him. I wish I could write like he does.

Lastly, he knows exactly when to be adorable and when to be attractive. And that, my friends, is a skill to be admired. XD

Here's to loving V6 and staying youthful!
17 June 2010 @ 10:35 pm
today marks the birthday of a very special neener  

(Yay for GMT -5.00 timing! Always late to the party, that's us XD)

So a little over a year and a half ago, I got inducted into the world of rainbows and sparkles. And at first, it wasn't for Neens. Like most people in these parts, I got Jun-baited by HYD (though I didn't really like him in that either, I just got curious and went on Wikipedia XD) and well, one thing led to another and I became an Arashi fangirl.

What was the turning point for my viewpoint on Nino? To be honest, I'm not too sure myself. It might have been his acting (or just the roles he was cast as and looked mighty fiiiiiiiiiiiiine in :D), it might have been AnS (because he snipes at everyone and I love him for it), or it might just have been his beautiful musicianship (needless to say, Niji is in my favourites XD). But in the end, my mind had settled that yes, Nino was indeed my number one.

One of my favourite episodes of AnS is the one where Higedanshaku (spelling?) goes on and Yamada Rui the 52nd complains about how his girlfriend is a huge Nino fan XD That cracked me up so much. And then Nino just went and stole the show, being the brat he is. What I love is that he might be all snarky and bratty, but in his interviews Nino reveals the other side of himself - the contemplative one, the mysterious one. It keeps me guessing, and it keeps me interested. And honestly, he comes up with good quotations in those :) Oh, and how he sang for the couples each time he went on MMA? Adorable.

Nino has pretty much become the archetype for my favourite kind of idol. When I look at my other idol fandoms I can see bits of Nino in each one, and I can't help but make that comparison. XD That's pretty much how much he's affected my state of mind. And really, I do love him for it. :D

May you continue to game on, be snarky and musical, and stay young! The 'eternally 17' moniker really fits, haha. (Seriously, his face doesn't change!)

Oh, and I forgot to tack on my gift!

I hope your ears don't bleed.
Current Mood: happy
17 May 2010 @ 10:04 pm
happy birthday to the smiliest of smilies!  
I never make more than one mouth on a smiley. Today, I will make an exception to this rule.


Honestly, no smiley face can really represent how awesome his grin is. When I first got into V6 and watched their variety shows, I was immediately drawn to how much he smiled. He had a great laugh and he was always being silly, which made me laugh. Soon enough, he became the member I would watch.

Then as I learned more about them, I discovered that he was the owner of that amazing voice I was hearing. Because I got into V6 for their music first, I was in awe at how well he sang, not only in his solo lines but how he meshed with the rest of the group, and how his voice was powerful and full of emotion.

Then I learned he played guitar. And being the sucker for musicians I am, it only confirmed that he was my favourite V6 member.

And so I deemed him awesome. XD

He's wonderfully honest and he is very capable. Not only is he a great singer and performer (a backflip HB, haha), he's also a great talker and that's been rewarded with his morning show. I'm glad that he's getting the recognition that he deserves and I hope he's managing his schedule very well. His jweb is also incredibly cute in his usage of emoticons and his arbitrary subject choice, and it connects to so many.

If I were to analyze the V6 family, we'd have Sakamoto-papa, Nagano-mama, the Kamisen kids and Inocchi would be the loyal and cuddly family dog who brings the family together (speaking of dog, I think whoever decided to make that commercial with him as a postman and that dog is awesome). And not only is he part of this wonderful family, he has one of his own! I'm proud of him for being part of the small married crowd of Johnny's, haha. (I don't know why I should be proud of this, is that sad?)

Inocchi, thank you for being awesome, and I hope you will continue being awesome. :)
Current Music: it's you - super junior
07 March 2010 @ 09:30 pm
it makes me insanely happy that i wrote something  
Just so it's somewhere other than in my agenda. One day, I will scan the pages in my agenda and show you all how many JE melodies have been written out in them when I'm bored in class. XD

//title: remnants
//category: Ace Attorney Investigations
//summary: The white cloth held within it the remnants of a dark memory, but also the reminder of a promise. A look at seventeen-year-old Kay Faraday.

remnants )

I love Ace Attorney. It needs a tag.
Current Mood: artistic
01 February 2010 @ 11:15 am
the saiyaku post of tardy arrival  
I promised to do this last week, and I've finally gotten around to it! I actually spent quite a while making caps, which is failtastic on my part. Wow. Okay, onto the real deal.

It certainly wasn't a masterpiece, but it was an entertaining drama - I mean, what can you expect from a one-shot SP drama? - and it played to their strengths in roles. (My mom, who watched it today, commented on that. XD) And I mean, it doesn't have to be amazing, but fans will find what they're looking for anyway, just because these roles seem so typical of them now. I, at least, got my dose of Nino!snark. Or snark!Nino. Or both XD

... spoilers, obviously XD onto the caps! )

Wow, I didn't think I would be able to type this much on it. I definitely took too many caps, but I didn't feel like wasting any of them so they're all here, lol. (I kind of wish Sora Takaku was on the new single as an extra B-side, but oh well. Maybe it'll be put on a new album or something XD)

Okay, sushi time!
Current Mood: awake
26 December 2009 @ 08:06 pm
why the magician is number one  

So I'll try and remember as much as I had before the stupid thing died on me. Here goes.

I've never done a full-blown fandom post and I was busy with the scanner so Aegisub was being slowed down, so I started this instead! And it's about none other than my number one. I'm too lazy to go hunt down magazines so no scans, but there will be a couple screencaps. And I'm just bored, really, so not everything will come to my head, so let's consider this a work in progress. Because for sure I'll find more reasons I like this brat that I'll have to add. (And maybe if I'm not lazy, more screencaps.)

Like who, you ask? None other than Ninomiya Kazunari! :D

Why him out of the five dorks in the rainbow sparkles we call Arashi - well, you'll see.

tl;dr? not if it's for nino! :D )
24 December 2009 @ 12:30 am
Solo Piano Arrangement: LIGHT IN YOUR HEART - V6  
After practically four months, I'm finally posting sheet music. Ah, my lost love.

Warning: LIGHT IN YOUR HEART is not exactly a piano-friendly song. I attempted this because I like playing things on piano and I figured out a good chunk of it, so I thought "Why not?" It's not exactly the most stunning thing you'll hear, but I think most of it works out. The good thing is that the chords weren't overly funky. :D

As a result, the left hand is pretty simple. Though together, both hands have some weird rhythms, but don't worry, you can change the left hand to suit your needs. What I put is just an idea.

Download Link (MU)

The download is a .rar file with a PDF and an MP3 of Finale playback. I suggest the sustain pedal. This version hasn't been tested yet - well, not all of it - so there may be some weird spots. Particularly the guitar solo. I actually slowed that section down to try and lift the guitar solo, but it didn't really work because it was really hard to listen to, so part of it's made up.

My next V6 sheet should be much more piano-friendly... except I have to figure out what to do with that guitar solo too. XD
Current Mood: relieved
05 December 2009 @ 11:39 pm
will i be forgiven?  
So I wrote this in record time for a friend's birthday. It's kind of bad because I didn't have time to look it over, so I'll probably edit it and send it to her again XD But I might as well put it in here first.

Shamelessly influenced by GUILTY. You'll see XD

witness to our crime )

Cheese and cliché galore! Man, I miss doing this. Almost.
Current Music: alright!! - superfly
Current Mood: pleased
24 October 2009 @ 11:14 pm
before i forget to do this  
Something I submitted to a writing showcase earlier this week. Thought I might as well put it up for reference.


So yeah. Whee. Thanks to all my awesome friends for coming, including [ profile] sidevocalist , of course. :D Shall post about life tomorrow when you can probably hear me complain about the lack of GUILTY yet again. Here's to hoping otherwise. >_<
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: rock the house - coming century
08 September 2009 @ 12:11 am
a piece of writing, for once  
A little while ago a friend and I did a prompt exchange since I haven't been writing much lately and I was looking for a bit of a stimulus. She gave me this:

Yelling: truth! Truth is like a blanket that always leaves your feet cold. You push it, stretch it, it'll never be enough. Kick at it, beat it, it'll never cover any of us. From the moment we enter crying, to the moment we leave dying, it'll just cover your face as you wail and cry and scream.

So here is my offering for now. It's not very creative and I might redo it later, especially that last part. Just thought I'd put this up before school starts and I forget to write this for her and/or put it up here.


Yeah. The title I got while thinking of Maou, the whole distorting the truth thing. Doesn't help that, you know, Arashi sang a song called 'truth'. XD Definitely a few influences on my writing. The last part gave me some trouble, since it was originally a lot longer than the first two and I wanted a bit more balance...

And I shouldn't be up right now. I'll never get up in time.

Current Music: meaning of birth - motoo fujiwara
05 September 2009 @ 07:54 pm
Solo Piano Arrangement: Wish - S.E.N.S.  
My friend [ profile] suckslikethat asked me to transcribe from a video she saw on YouTube of a medley of things from 'Kami-sama, Mou Sukoshi Dake' (or however it's written, sorry).

I did some tinkering, and gave my file to her. I then listened to the original version and it truly is pretty. So I added eight bars that weren't present in the above video and came out with this version of Wish. It was hard to add in stuff, because there's a lot that this arrangement doesn't have in terms of texture change. Do give the original a listen, it has a beautiful horn.

Download Link (MU)

As usual, pedal is your friend :D And the .rar contains the PDF and an MP3 of Finale's playback.

And yes, I am trying something as crazy as making LIGHT IN YOUR HEART into piano. >_<